Chapter 9: In the future

Cilla was reading by a pond in the courtyard of the Temple of Love.

A young woman in a red sequin gown interrupted her. “Hey Cilla,” she said.

“Hey, Zuzu,” she answered. “What’s up?”

“I’m just checking on you.”

“Oh, sorry,” said Cilla. “Things haven’t been going well with my husband.”

“Trouble in paradise?” asked Zuzu.

“Philosophically,” she answered. “He wants to experience and enjoy Love. I want to understand it.”

“Maybe you need someone more curious and less go-with-the-flow.”

“I don’t think he’s the problem.”

“What’s the problem then?”

“I think it’s with me.”

“There’s nothing wrong with you.”

“No, not me as a person, but maybe Refangi[1] was right about the God of Love not being able to find it.”

“I’m a God of Love and I think I’ll find it one day.”

“Refangi never did,” said Cilla. “Not until he gave up the power. I don’t want to bum you out but I’m starting to think we’re cursed.”

“I’m not cursed,” said Zuzu.

“Who are you dating?” asked Cilla.

“Well, no one at the moment. But I’ve had crushes. It’s not like I can’t feel Love. Besides, if we can’t fall in love that would imply, we can’t feel love of any kind since we can control love of any kind.”

“I think your qualifier of crushes proves you don’t consider them equivalent. But regardless, soulmates are different and that’s what I’m really talking about.”

“I understand that, but we can control platonic love and familial love as well and you don’t believe you can’t love your family.”

“We’re not cursed to be unable to feel any love,” said Cilla. “I think we’re cursed to not find soulmates. And if you’re asking why soulmates in particular, that’s just the nature of curses, to be mysterious.”

“But if it was a curse, we could detect it in the power.”

“I don’t mean a literal curse. I mean Gods of Love all seem to have this problem. It’s as far back as they kept record. There’s got to be a connection.”

“It’s not like you’re the only God to not find a soulmate,” said Zuzu. “Look at Water, Fire, Earth, Metal, I could go on. But lots of us are single.”

“I don’t know Zuzu. You might feel differently by the time you’re my age.”

“Maybe. But I choose to believe I’ll find love.”

“Maybe you’ll finally be the one who breaks the curse.”

[1] Refangi was the previous God of Love. Gods of Love are somewhat unique in that they often retire instead of holding the power for their entire life.